ahhh easter. or as the delahaye household regards it-the springtime christmas. every morning when my brother and i were little, as soon as the sun hit our driveway, we were up and ready to begin our candy quest, our "easter egg hunt". after waking up an exhausted mom and dad, we would climb and search every nook and cranny for the little milk chocolate eggs that my parents would hide. because of either my precociousness or propelled by the drive for sugar, i always found a majority of the candy while my brother was still perusing one room. tears were shed and tantrums were thrown until i gave up my hard-earned candy stock so that both my brother and i would have equal portions. i look back and see the foreshadowing-my life so easy, a memorized, perfected composition while he is still struggling on the beginning notes. fate or hindrances of the past have caught up to both of us now. we each have equal amounts in our basket.
i spoke to my parents today. they can sense my growing despondence and my mother offers a temporary balm in the form of a new pair of shoes. it's not going to fix it.
nothing can change what i am anymore.
happy moment of 4/11: exercise is cathartic. ran and walked six miles today.
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