Thursday, January 7, 2010

Morbid Thoughts

I've always had the feeling that mine was going to be a short life. People always look at me like I'm crazy when I reveal that...but I don't maintain this view for shock value. I don't necessarily WANT to die young, I guess that if I were...

Waking Life has this interesting dialouge where a man and a woman discuss her view of her life as though she is recalling memories as a old woman dying in her bed. I see my life as the opposite. I feel is that the way I view my life is that from a perspective of a child visualizing her dreams for the future, seeing her twenties, my current present, as events far into the future rather than undulating in the recesses of the past. Truthfully, from my vantage point, I feel old. I've loved and lost, what other noise is there in life? I suppose to repeat the cycle again. Perhaps, that's why I'm such an adrenaline junkie; I constantly crave new experiences to validate and enrich my existence.

I'll end this bit of enda downer post with some random thoughts:

-If I were to die in some unfortunate circumstances, I would never EVER want my family or friends to start a foundation or organization or even law that would attempt to prevent my death from happening to others. I would never want to have my name or life to be completely overshadowed by my gruesome or untimely end. It's like when musical artists die and because of their passing, they are heralded as visionaries.

-As technologically advanced and intellectually superior we feel to other animals, it's funny how when we go to sporting events, especially hockey games, all we really want to see is in all-out, no-holds barred brawl.

-After watching The Bachelor, it's no wonder guys find 99% of the female population crazy.

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