but a little fantastic, fleeting, and out of reach

I came to this realization. Just now. While watching ADAPTATION. The movie about a guy writing a movie-which is in fact the movie that you are watching.



I realized this while watching the movie while simultaneously searching for reviews on the movie I was watching. Reading other people's words, other people's perspectives. Because I was doing this, I didn't watch the movie intently. I wasn't fully engaged.

I also do this with restaurants and food. For some odd reason, I have to read these reviews and see how other people feel. I can't just experience anything for myself. I have this need to know something before I get in. I can't just leap before I look.